goodbye january! see ya next year. (thank God!!!) with that being said, three months down, four months to go. but part of me looks at is as three months to go only because may is going to be ridiculously crazy and hectic and straight up fuuuuun. quitting my job (i couldn't be happier about this), finishing my classes (although, i will be more excited in march), and moving out of my apartment (i'm indifferent about this). AND there's always that possibility that doc will be home in may, although, i'm not crossing my fingers, it's just a thought. in february, i have a couple of things to look forward to. going to topeka a few times, my best friend coming home, and well, i guess that's about it.
you know what i'm tired of? people always being down. it's fucking ridiculous. like really? appreciate what you have. maybe you don't get a phone call everything, who the hell cares?! no news is good news. we've all gone more than a week without talking to our men, but that's okay. it makes us stronger, it builds character. i love being stronger than the average person, and when they tell me 'i could never do what you're doing' it gives me personal satisfaction to know that they will NEVER have a love or relationship or marriage like doc and i do. they probably could if they tried, but the fact that they don't want to, it's just appalling to me. when i first started dating doc, i never even thought we would make it to a year. i remember talking on msn (cause that was the 'thing' to do) and him telling me that he wanted to go into the military, and i remember telling him that i never wanted to date anyone in the military. and i'm sure that hurt his feelings, but look at us now. never, in a million years, did i think four years ago that i would marry the man i married. but i'm absolutely head over heels in love with him. and i could never tell him enough how much i love him, or how grateful i am to have him in my life. it excites me that i get to spend the second and third year of our marriage with JUST him. no one else. me and him, alone, on an island, conquering the world together, one day at a time. and OF COURSE i will miss my family, but starting this new adventure with doc is gonna be one hell of a ride :D
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