Wow, it's been almost three whole months since I've wrote, and man, have things changed.
Doc is finally home, we've been to Kansas and now have been back in Hawaii for about two and a half months, which seems crazy as all get out. We have a couple of friends staying with us, which is a lot of fun at times. And, we have a puppy :)
I guess I came to write because I sent an "I'm sorry" message to an old friend. It makes me really sad to know that we aren't friends any more. I have to admit that at one point, my life got so crazy, I wasn't even thinking about her. Until it all started to get to me, and I realized she was suppose to be there with me, calming me down, and helping me through my anxiety attack that I was having cause Doc was SO close to being home. She was definitely my best friend, aside from Doc, and while I'd like to sit here and say she was being childish about everything....I was too. And I admit that, and everything just came off so wrong, and I've realized that. I've wanted to write for a while now, but I haven't. Her friend has stopped me. My ex roommate. It bothered (and will bother me) that I know she's going to go off and tell her what I said, but I'm in Hawaii, and my old roommate lives in Kansas, and she lives in Texas (or last I knew). Even if she did, I wouldn't know, and what could I do? Nothing. So I figure why not lay it out there, and tell her that I am truly sorry for what I put her through. My actions and words came off all freaking wrong. I wrote it at like, 9:30 pm here, so she obviously hasn't gotten it, but I can't help but wonder what she's gonna do, if she's just going to completely ignore me, or be a bitch, or reply and be nice about it. Who the hell knows.
